dream a little dream of me

So I suppose it is time for an update. I am going to touch on what Katie wrote about in her random things blog. Because I totally (like her) have had dreams that are so real that I thought they actually happened, or at least parts of dreams that are so real I have to ask people the next day if it really happened which makes me feel like a moron. Dreams are just fascinating to me. Last night I had a dream that was so vivid and detailed that it was awesome, but I didn't think it actually happened because it wasn't really a very realistic dream. I've always thought about starting a 'dream diary' where you write down what you can remember from your dream right when you wake up. Because although last nights dream was extremely vivid, now I can't even remember what it was about, which is why a dream diary would come in handy. 

Sometimes I think that dreams are a sort of way to help you work through issues or problems that you are dealing with in your life, but other times they just seem completely random. I've tried to force myself to think about a subject before I went to bed in hopes that I would dream about it, sometimes this plan has worked and sometimes it hasn't. 

So that is what I'm going to do, start a dream diary and see if it helps me to figure out how my mind works or helps guide me in some way.

new look

I feel like I need a new look to my blog page so that I will update it more frequently... but I'm an idiot. Can anyone help me?? I hate my page.

my day

8:39 a.m. - Derek pounds on my door and tells me to wake up, because I asked him to do this so that I would be somewhat productive today.

10:44 a.m. - My cell phone rings the Bad Boys theme song and wakes me up.. It is my sister's friend who is calling so I am confused, yet I don't answer.

10:47 a.m. - I go pee then look at the two monsterous zits that have grown on my face over night.

10:51 a.m. - I sit down in the chair and use my new fleece tie blanket that i made myself over Xmas break! I turn on the Tv and listen to Real Chance of Love while checking Facebook/Myspace/Email.

10:59 a.m - Played Text Twist for a while

11:43 a.m. - Went to the bathroom (#2)

11:51 a.m. - Ate a banana

11:52 a.m. - Started talking to my sister on facebook chat

12:12 p.m. - I answered the door and a cute guy asked if i knew who owned the green pickup truck outside.. i told him i had no clue

1:01 pm - Answered the knock at the door. Package for myself and Derek, my package included the USB drive that I accidentally left at my mom's house over break

1:07 p.m - I realize that my USB is now here and I have no more excuses to not be productive today.

1:16 p.m. - I had a cigarette outside while wearing shorts, and its negative 10 degrees out... that was a bad idea. but this pack of cigarettes is my last pack!!!

2:12 p.m. - I emailed the Chief of Police in Burlington, Iowa to check up on his progress with the letter of cooperation he was supposed to send to UNI about a month and a half ago. 

3:14 p.m. - I head to the gym with Derek to get yelled at by him so he can get me in shape. (Derek has started a new work out program and is helping me get passed my weight loss plateau that I am at right now.. he is a Nazi and is making do a low carb diet too)

5:16 p.m. - Return home from workout.

5:37 p.m. - Ate chicken noodle soup, chicken, and peanuts for dinner with some orange juice.

5:38 p.m. - Started watching Sixteen Candles on TV while eating my din din.

6:58 p.m. - Hopped in the shower when Sixteen Candles was over.

7:16 p.m. - Started watching the premier of American Idol

8:00 p.m. - Called my mamacita and talked to her for about 15 minutes.

8:49 p.m. - Derek came back from the library, so now I have a real life person to converse with again.

8:51 p.m. - I DVR'ed Sixteen Candles for Derek because he has never seen it, so now I am going to watch the end again, then I will probably read while laying in bed and watching Sex in the City and start my snoozing. (p.s. Chief Luttenegger has not replied to my email yet)

Alright... the explanation for this post is that I haven't updated my blog in so long because I feel like I have nothing to blog about because my life is so boring. And when it isn't boring it seems like lately only dumb things have happened that I feel I would be complaining about. But after talking to JamFla I've come to the realization that it is my blog and I shouldn't worry about whining too much, I should just write about whatever I want to write about... so today I gave you the really boring play by play of my day!!

an update...

is coming very soon i promise!!!

im kind of a slacker... in all aspects of life

So I again have been slacking on updating my blog. And one of those reasons is because I also slacked this semester on working on my Lit. Review for my thesis, and it is due Wednesday, and I have been working on it hardcore for the past three days which leaves minimal blog updating time. I feel like I have also been slacking on seeing all my friends that are going to be leaving soon... It is starting to sink in that they are all going to be gone, moving on and making big changes in their life, and I will be stuck here in Antarctica. So I will update more later. But I need to see you people before you leave damn it. I know I wasn't a huge part of your lives these past 3 years like everyone has been saying, because I am not a SLP major, but I will still miss you guys.

oh thanksgiving break... you're always a delight

So I kind of dropped the ball on updating during the second half of November. Oops. So this entry will be an update about what I did over my week and half long Thanksgiving break.

So I went home the weekend before Thanksgiving and this is exactly how it went down. The night I got home I got wasted. The next night I watched movies. My whole time home proceeded in exactly this order. A night of wastedness, then a night of movies and relaxation. When all was said and done I had an emotional week and my liver is also very upset with me, but I think it was much needed to get me back on track. 

I went down an old path that turned out not so good by attempting to contact someone I probably shouldn't be contacting at all and my life would actually greatly benefit from never seeing them ever again. But as JamFla pointed out to me, I must be glutton for punishment. I don't know what my deal is, I guess I just set myself up for failure or something. 

Needless to say I got rejected a few times over break. No big deal, my life is obviously going on as normal. One of them was just unexpected I guess, and ended up hurting my feelings more than I would have imagined. Don't get me wrong, I'm not heart broken or anything, I guess I had just never sorted through those old emotions and was more sad than I would have thought I would be about the outcome of the situation. 

Then I had a falling out with my step-mother, which I was furious about, the whole situation just really ticked me off. I talked to my dad about it a couple days after it happened and he was not upset at all (which was what I was mostly worried about) so all in all the situation is now resolved as far as I'm concerned. In this instance, resolution equals me having strong feelings of dislike for my step-mom butting in my life when it's none of her business, but that is perfectly fine with me. The only reason she means anything to me is because she means so much to my dad. 

I did not go shopping on Black Friday because A) I am NOT a fan of overcrowded stores and crazy ass shoppers and B) I had to work all day. But Jessica and I did go shopping on Saturday and it was the perfect kind of shopping. It was a mission, we knew what we needed and got in and out and there was not an over abundance of perusing and dicking around. And we pretty much got most of our X-mas shopping done for our mom and dad. 

I also watched the movie Step Brothers over break, and I must say that I LOVE that movie. It is so off the wall its awesome, and it is hilarious. I definitely am going to buy it sometime. As most of you know, I also watched Twilight (for the 2nd time actually last night) and while there was some disappointments, overall it was pretty good. I agree with JamFla about the sweaty/sun dilemma. I also think that Rosalie could have been cast better, but oh well. I am excited to own it on DVD so I can fully enjoy the movie in all my full fledged creepy vampire stalker mode without having to worry about being poked in the side every 3 minutes or listening to 12 year olds screech and yell at each other to shut up. I hope this update will do for now. I need to go work on my assistantship stuff.

life questions

So at this point in my existence it seems that many life questions have come up lately that I feel the need to find answers to and it also seems that there are a LOT of other people I know that are in the same boat. I feel the constant urge recently to find the bigger picture and to see the meaning of it all. There are so many things I am contemplating that I can't even seem to find the words to express it in this blog. My last (and really depressing... sorry about that) post fits into this recent theme in my life of longing for answers. So for now I am going to keep questioning all of these pushes and pull of life that I seem to be experiencing, and I will hopefully come up with some answers and post about them soon. I may even make it into a top ten list of some sort! who knows!